Maybe I was wrong. Wrong at a lot of things. There are a lot of things I should and should not have done. I’d like to think you ended it, but maybe it was me. It had been me for quite some time now. I was making all the wrong moves, I should have just let things go the way they would and not have tried to fight back. I should have just believe it was only a dream and now I already woke up and the reality is in front of me that you're not really the one for me.
I wish I didn’t send that message. I wish I just kept quiet. Maybe you would have done something to reach out by now. But no, I just had to come too strong and crazy mad. I was upset and sick. I’m sick literally, and sick of how you make me feel, sick of all the waiting and the hoping and the wanting. I’m sick of not knowing what to do, what to feel. However, now I’m pretty sure what to do, I have no choice left anyways. I have scared you off, pushed you away for good. All I can do now is let go, move on. I am sorry, so so sorry. I am really sorry for ruining the chance of being with you for the rest of my life. I am sorry for the long distance, for the immature attitude, for all the pain. I wish it would just be as easy as 1,2,3 to keep the friendship and keep you in my life but it's not.
I never really felt like this for anyone before. Not as strongly as this, at least. I’m not sure if this is love, I can never be sure now. All I know is I cared, I cared for you and for the “us” I hoped we could have. Maybe I cared too much. Never had I thought I would feel this way for someone or that someone would ever have me feel this way. As much as I would like to tell myself that it is your loss, I know very that it is mine too. Surely, it is but mine too. Maybe in time, surely not anytime soon, I’ll get over you and there would come another boy to sweep me off my feet. Maybe I’ll be more scared to fall then after all this, but then I hope I still take the risk of falling.
You, oh boy. You will always bring my heart this bunch of hurt and regret every time I’d see your face, hear your name, get updates of you and all those fuckin' memories that we've shared even if it's miles away. Nonetheless, I’d like to believe it was all worth it, we were worth it. I just hope that one day you’d realize that maybe I was worth so much more. On that day, if that day comes, I hope I’m still there to welcome you back open arms and this unfinished business we had perhaps we can reset and start at the good part we left off. I’m wishing you all the best. Always, please always take good care of yourself. Set your goal. I believe someday we will surely meet to end things the right way or probably to start things the right way. I loved you with all my heart and from the deepest core of my existence i secretly believe that we will last forever.
"I've never known a love like this 'til you.. I've never known a love like this so true.. Oh I know that I was born to love you.. I know that I was born for you.."
This love is difficult but it's real or rather should i say this love is real but it's difficult.
Sarap noh? Yummy yan.. ❌❌❌
